Energy in Reality

It tends to get frustrating when the things we want aren’t appearing as quickly as we’d like them to in our lives. Working with energy, I experience this frustration first hand all the time. I manifest something in, I see it in the field, but it takes forever to show up in physical reality. I know the road is paved, it is happening, but when? I’m ready, damn it!! I’m ready! Especially hard for a 'Type A' personality. All I can do sometimes is just have faith, knowing it will show up when the time is right. There is just no getting around it.

Timing is a tough thing for me to pinpoint with my clients with laser sharp accuracy. Typically I can get a rough idea for days, weeks are much easier, and months are pretty clear, but anything sooner gets difficult to see. Over the years of experience, I have boiled it down to these four reasons.

1)    Possibilities

2)    Probabilities

3)    Destiny

4)    The Body Clock

Let’s take number one – possibilities. When energy starts to build around thoughts and emotions, the possibility of that thing you desire takes shape. You want a new love. You think it, feel it, let the desire in ~ wham~ there he or she is...well not so fast. There is still action that needs to be taken on that new energy. If you sit in your house all day alone the chances of meeting him isn’t going to be great. Sure you can bump into him at the grocery store, but if you are actively involved in a few hobbies and activities, the chances can go way up. Right person, right time. That brings us to probabilities. The energy is lined up, now the action is taken and you are in the game of increasing the probability that your new love will come in. Once a 65% chance of manifesting now has a 90% chance… big improvement!

Line up the energy + take the action. Both need to be activated.

All good right? Except for two pesky little things you still have to deal with. Let’s start with destiny. Destiny is an experience that you are meant to have in this life. It can not be moved, although it can be delayed a bit. So, if you are meant to meet your man after he’s had experience x and you’ve had experience y, that can not be undone.  If this is the case, you'll just have to wait for this to play out. 

Finally, being at the will of our body clocks is a reality. Our body is typically slower to adjust to movement than our being (spirit) clock. Our being creates very quickly, and our body needs to carry out the new concept, idea or creation. In order to do that, the body needs be able to handle this change in physical reality. Unlike the spirit that isn't tied to the concept of time, the body is a slave to the confines of time in our reality. Simply said, your body needs time to adjust to your intention. 

Seems daunting? Lucky for us energy moves faster than the speed of light. These 4 things might be delaying your dreams for a little while, but not to worry, energy shifts happen in a matter of microseconds. If you manifest it - trust it will be - it just may not happen in the time frame you want. 

Afterall life is meant to be an experience, so experience it. Try to let go the worry you have around the timing of it all and try to enjoy the journey. In retrospect, you may even think the timing was true perfection! 

The Spiritual Side Of Health

For as long as I’ve been reading and healing a variety of health issues for individuals, one thing remains true, the state of health is dynamic and ever changing. However, there are typically 6 components that I often see that make up a person’s overall balance of health & wellness.

These components are: structural, physical, bio-chemical, emotional, mental and spiritual.  The first three are all things that can be treated by different types of doctors, herbalists, nutritionists, etc. The last three components to health are more spiritual in nature.

When you fall, get cut and your hand bleeds, it may in fact need stitches, but, did you ever think about the reason why it happened in the first place? A clumsy slip of the heel, perhaps, a message from your spirit, certainly possible.

I often encounter life transitions and changes occurring in my clients through injuries and illness. For example, it’s time for you to move out of the city, you know it, but something is holding you back. Signs continue to come, now you really know it, yet you remain. Suddenly, walking home from work a biker runs into you causing a concussion, or you fall in the street needing stiches. When your inner voice is there and you don’t respond, your intuition is calling and you ignore it, something happens to make you listen. A move you have to make, that book you have to start, the family you need to create, the self-love you need to develop, the pause you have to take in your life to find enjoyment, the list goes on.  

Listen to your injuries, listen to your illness, your disease, your weakness. They hold a story that can unlock emotional and mental blocks, anguish, invalidation, pain and suffering. We are all dynamic beings and in order to manage health we need to honor the entirety of us.

Battling my Perfectionism with Movement

I’ve been thinking about these two words all week. I just hit a new growth period in my life and fighting with my perfectionism is an understatement. This isn’t any old fight, this is an all-out battle. While I know I’m still not coming to the absolute end of this very long battle, I do know that my perfectionism is painfully obvious to me now every day. So why can’t I finally let this go? What am I holding on to? Is it possible to still hold my life together if I’m not doing it under some strange guise of being perfect? I don’t know. I’m not pretending to know.

I do know this - movement helps.

“We see in order to move; we move in order to see.” 
― William Gibson

Movement has been my go-to.

I can’t find the perfect outfit, I find one good enough and go.

I can’t write the perfect article, I post it anyway and begin a new piece.

I can’t find the perfect words for my husband, I just kiss him and walk away.

I start to dwell on something I said or did to someone that may have been the wrong thing to say or do, I forgive myself and I breath and I move on.

Movement has been the key to get me unstuck from this pattern of perfectionism. It doesn’t mean I don’t care. It just means that sometimes you’re willing to settle for a B in place of being nice to yourself. Not always, but sometimes. What I didn’t expect from all this movement is this jolt of creativity it’s provided me. It’s made me a bit less critical, a bit more flexible. More movement, more permission, more space to be me. The true me. It feels good. Some would even say I now have better flow!

It's More Than Just Deja Vu....

Yesterday I was in the car driving almost all day. I had this nagging feeling that I would be stopped by a cop. Nagging me during my morning drive on the turnpike to my meeting, and nagging me again on my drive home. Trying to tune into my inner voice, I attempted to figure out when exactly when this incident would occur. Just be aware — be on guard, it will happen was what the voice I heard said back. 5 miles from home, my shoulders were relaxed, I loosened up, turned the music louder… I thought I was in the clear and actually laughed off my instinct as paranoia. Not paying attention, coming off an exit, I rode the shoulder a bit before merging into the lane; I looked up and saw a cop.

He pulled me over.

How many times do you hear that nagging voice telling you don’t go out tonight and you go, and the night is horrible? Only to tell yourself later, what a waste of time, I knew it — I knew it! Or your inner voice telling you; I’d really prefer to do something else, and you listen to it, on a whim, and you suddenly feel free. Why can’t we access this all the time? Well, the good news is — we can.

Intuition is our 6th sense and it’s our birthright. I used to shrug it off as paranoia, but now I understand it’s actually very normal, necessary, and totally life changing. The more you listen, the better you get at deciphering your true voice. It’s kind of like exercising a muscle. It’s also something you need to experience to believe, so start with small stuff and see how it transforms your life over time.

However, once you experience it in a major way — you’re hooked. And the next question becomes, why didn’t someone write a manual for this? Why wasn’t this something I was taught when I was young so I could have mastered this by now? It drives you toward building the courage to listen to yourself, finding your own truth and solidifying your individuality. All those important things that would have been nice to learn early in life.

My biggest question is why don’t we embrace this as a significant tool in our tool box as mothers? We are all capable of being a little bit psychic and tapping into our intuition; when we become mothers, this only gets stronger. When your baby is in your belly for 10 months, you talk to he/she, play it music, tell stories and laugh together. So why stop when your little one is earthside?

A few things to do on a regular basis to strengthen your intuition with your child as well as your connection:
 Before going to bed, think about your child, envision them being happy and protected
 When at work, stop for a few mins while you are alone and think about your child, say a big hello and send love their way
 Spend uninterrupted time with your child, even for 10 mins. Listen to them, ask them questions, scan their emotions, verbal questions and watch their body language. You are looking for a sign to prove that all is right and well with them. If something comes up that seems off, ask them about it.

Send them protection and love through your hugs and kisses.

Have a family routine you do with them every day, 2 mins of deep breathing, looking in the mirror doing mantras, exercising, something special and something to build their self-esteem.

Happy parenting!

Sitting in the parking lot…reflecting

I’m sitting here in the wholefoods parking lot. My 3rd trip this week. I’m 40 …. 40. When I was parting in Greece, Egypt, France and New York City did I ever think I’d be sitting here in the wholefoods parking lot for the 3rd time this week, 1 kid deep, wondering what I want from my life. I’ve already done it all and now at 40 I’m enjoying my 3 year old grow. Isn’t that enough? Is it? Do I need more? Do I deserve more? What is more … what does that even mean?

My marriage is great, I love my husband, I’m spiritual, connected, genuinely happy, and my child is pure joy. So why still a bit uncomfortable in my skin, why still unable to conquer fears, dreams, find who I am. Why do I always eat that one cookie that prevents me from meeting my weight goal the next day or look at my phone when I should be reading a book?

I know mostly who I am. I’ve reprogrammed myself from it all. Or so I thought. All the bad parenting, all the damage from dating in nyc, all the negative evil world energy you pick up as you live, as you breath. But still at 40 why am I still longing for something more? Missing something. Needing a different lifestyle, a different life. Why do I get bored just after each new iteration of a new life I create. Am I addicted to creating something new or am I just board with humanity, people, materialism, mom stuff, zombies — so many zombies around me. Do they get it? Do they want more?

I’m so intrigued by this planet and people so why the boredom? Maybe everyone in the suburbs is bored? Maybe I need to grow up? I swore I would never do this. I would never fall into this rut of work, eat, sleep — who had this car and has that dinning room table. Who cares!???! I don’t and I’m bored. You bore me. I’m bored out of my mind!!

But what’s a girl to do? Move to the city lock into 12 years of private school fees? Lock myself into having to work always? Don’t I want more freedom than that? Freedom. That’s a good word ! Do I really feel free anymore. No, no I don’t. Freedom doesn’t really exist with a child. Or maybe it’s my mindset. Maybe I’m conforming to what I think is best for my child and killing who I am in the meantime.

I had dreams and I accomplished them, I traveled the world, became an executive and should be happy to settle into this new life. I am happy — but I want more much much more. More excitement, more interesting things to do, more challenges. More. I thought I was zen. Maybe I’m not.

Maybe I’m nothing. That. I thought I was.

Maybe I’m someone new.

Can you get reincarnated into the same lifetime?

I’m always tired, tired and bored of coming to wholefoods and making dinner menus and working and waking up in the same house.

I want to take my family and have an adventure, explore life, show my daughter the world, love, grow, experience, build an empire — do more. This can’t be it. In one way it’s everything, but why does my skin crawls wanting more. More. I just know I want more. I’ve known that one truth my entire life. But what is more? How the hell do I get it? What is the damn answer??!? It haunts me. I’ve been chasing it for a lifetime and I want answers people!

Will I be 50 and not know? Will I be 60 and not know. How can I create this? How can I make this happen for myself before I die? I must know what more is.

Do you know what your more is?

Please. Tell me.